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From the website of
KAMALAYSAYAN:
I
Will Always Be A Filipina!
By Edessa Ramos-Ott
Edessa
is a theater and artist, as well as a culture and sense of history enthusiast,
based in Switzerland. She is a member of Kamalaysayan Writers and Speakers
and wrote this piece for the Kamalaysayan website in March 1997.
.............Profoundly.
That's how I feel my sense of nationality. I have had a deep sense of being
Filipino, and this feeling was further enhanced when I started travelling
to other countries.
In the milieu of multi-culturalism and global diversity, I discovered that
there are so many opportunities to express one's pride in being Filipino.
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.............In
the physical sense, I became very much aware of my brown skin, more appropriately
called kayumanggi, my dark hair and eyes, my slight build -- in contrast
to the white woman's image which so many of our countrymen for the past
century have admired.
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.............The
challenge is to enhance these physical characteristics of the Filipina
with ideas inspired by our ancestors and history (much like the way African
women proudly wear indigenous materials and coil their hair in magnificent
braids, enhancing skin color and the uniqueness of their culture). We have
yet to develop such fashion in clothing that is uniquely Filipino and yet
is practical (the way blue jeans are super-practical) and easily popular.
Meanwhile, we can start with accessories that are culturally inspired.
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.............In
the spiiritual sense, I discovered that the foundation of my spirituality
is rooted in our history. By reading more of the lives and works of our
heroes, I am able to formulate a set of values to live by that are uniquely
Filipino.
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.............My
sense of romance is inspired by the exploits of our heroes. From our indigenous
ancestors, I am able to rejuvenate my belief in a Creator (Bathala). The
Creator fulfills the vacuum in my soul more profoundly than the Catholic
Church has been able to do. This belief is combined with learnings from
Rizal's own religious faith as contained in his writings, a faith that
is anchored on God's presence manifested through the mysteries of life
and nature, not through the rituals of the church.
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.............In
the intellectual sense, I try to learn more from Filipino studies, analysees
of things, inventions and discoveries. For example, in trying to understand
the dynamic of culture vis-a-vis progress, I took towards Sikolohiyang
Pilipino as a scientific body of thought rather than jumping immediately
towards Western psychology for answers. I look for Filipino innovations
and stories of discoveries to derive inspiration from. The Filipino has
been "the First" in so many things, and many of our ideas have been stolen
and appropriated by the west.
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.............In
terms of my writing, I am currently trying to write more in Tagalog, starting
with translations of my own works in English. English is a language I have
been more comfortable as a result of my neo-colonial education. Later,
mastery of the language became very useful for international writing. Nevertherless,
it is important to raise my level of comfort and expertise in writing in
Tagalog and perhaps other Filipino languages. In reading, however, I have
always maintained a healthy balance of English and Filipino materials and
authors.
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.............As
a student of language (I am currently studying German), I appreciate fully
the importance of language as the embodiment of our identity, as a people,
and in a personal way. In my own personal experience, Tagalog is the cradle
of my childhood memories, the identity of my parents and families, the
joys and pains of life's experiences. How can I remember my childhood in
German? I will have to undego an intense and tedious process of translation
to be able to express stories of my childhood in another language.
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.............In
terms of literature, theater and the arts, while I always enjoyed works
from around the globe, I have been discovering more and more the excitement
and innovation of Filipino works. I believe that we are one of the best
pioneers of experimental theater. Our literary works are of world caliber.
Our visual arts is competitive worldwide as well. I believe that
there is no one more global than the Filipino, for in him is infused the
following unique and unparalleled mix: western experiences resulting from
colonialism, revolutionary experiences that gave rise to a very Filipino
meaning of liberation, and in modern times, the diapora of Filipino immigrants
and migrant workers to all parts of the earth.
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.............If
we can only break free from the bonds of feudal values and thoughts, and
a feudal sense of morality that chain our intellect, then we can give full
play to the Filipino's ability to be an excellent participant in the global
stage.
It is sad to note, and this is supported by many studies particularly
by the Social Weather Station, that many Filipinos are still at a loss
about how to regard their nationality. While most Filipinos would still
say that they are proud to be Filipino, this is still a shaky pronouncement.
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.............Being
Filipino is not just in the mind, "hindi lamang sa diwa o puso." It is
also manifested in action, in putting the values and examples of our heroes
at work. For example, "pakikipagkapwa" -- how do we practice this value?
Do we throw our garbage in the empty lot next door in order to keep our
own frontyard clean, and to hell with everyone else? Do we care for the
children on the streets, do we participate in programs that assist the
less fortunate? Do we rise up in indignation when another Filipina worker
is killed abroad? When we travel, do we talk to other Filipinos, especially
those who are in trouble, or do we isolate ourselves from them?
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.............Perhaps
what we lack is a constant dose of reminders of how great the Filipino
was, is, and can be. More Filipinos need to discover our greatness as a
nation by tracing and embracing our collective roots.
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With
the Philippine Flag,
I
Was Home!
By Rudy D. Liporada
[Rudy
is a Filipino publisher and sense of history enthusiast based in Oxnard,
California, USA. He is a member of Kamalaysayan Writers and Speakers.
The following is excerpted from the piece he wrote for Kamalaysayan website
in 1996. ]
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.............There
was a time when I flew from Zambia, Africa to Kenya. My Philippine passport,
along with my wife's and children's, was expiring. Aside from South Africa's,
Nairobi in Kenya had the only other Philippine Consular office in the continent
where one could renew passports. Fearing loss of passports through the
mail and wanting to see Nairobi, I took the two hour flight to renew them
personally. At that time, I had been away from the Philippines almost three
years. I had not seen the Filipino flag that long.
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.............In
Nairobi, from where the bus dropped me, I still had to walk almost six
blocks towards the Philippine consular office. As I approached, I glimpsed
at a flag fluttering high against a backdrop of unclouded sun gleamed sky.
As I drew nearer, the flag became more recognizable. Flapping aginst the
wind, its red, white and blue surged into my heart. Its yellow sun and
three stars popped nostalgia that enveloped my entire being. I tried hard
to contain the tears that welled within me. After being away from the Philippines;
missing my parents, friends, everything Filipino - here I was approaching
the very symbol of where my innermost soul came from. And for a brief moment
when I finally reached it, I touched the pole that held the flag and staring
up, I seemed to hear the flapping flag telling me "you're home, I am here
to protect you." I had to wipe my tears before I entered the consular building.
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.............Years
later, I had to take my oath to become a citizen of the United States of
America. When it came to the part of the oath where its says I will not
recognize any other more flags except the United States of America's, where
I have to forget all my loyalties to the country of my origin when made
to choose in favor of the United States of America, a lump swelled within
my throat. In that capsuled moment, the flag when I was in Nairobi " surged
into my mind, the million times I sang the Philippine anthem while the
Filipino flag was being raised flashed, making my chest heavy. I felt I
was a hypocrite with my right hand raised taking the oath of American citizenship.
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.............Feeling
guilty, I tried to find justifications. America had been and is being good
to me. The Philippines was unable to completely provide what I and my family
needed. That is why we had to uproot ourselves for Africa, entrenching
ourselves in a strange land to suffer nostalgia away from our clans and
the Philippines we call home. That is why we had to grab the earliest opportunity
that smiled on us - to become immigrants and eventually citizens of the
United States, still very much a land of milk of honey - even at the expense
of changing loyalties to the flag of the United States of America.
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Realization
from a One-foot Ruler
By Ed Aurelio C.
Reyes
[Ding
Reyes, a quadri-media practritioner, founded the Kamalaysayan in 1991 and
wrote a syndicated column for Kamalaysayan Media Service, Philippine News
Agency and SunStar News Service in 1994-97 This was one of his earliest
column items. The illustration comes from Kamalaysayan Grafix.]
..................It
has been a generally-unchallenged expression of dismay over our self-image
as a people: "Hay, naku! Ganyan talaga ang Pinoy!" (Filipinos are really
like that!) The specifics would move us to laugh heartily on the outside,
and to weep bitterly on the inside.
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.................This
writer once described the present-day Filipino as "increasingly cynical
of his neighbor and even of himself, increasingly vulnerable to the temptations
of systemic corruption and injustice and pushed to be always on the alert
for the easiest shortcuts often at the expense of his peers. ..................
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..................Underneath
the crackling laughter of ever-ready Filipino humor now hides a tormented
social psyche, with numbness and confusion about the past, tears for the
present and subdued agony, manifesting as fatalism, over bleak prospects
of the future."
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..................What
tends to make us resign to this sort of national identity is precisely
that "numbness and confusion" about our past. And let us now include another
painful word: ignorance.
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..................That
last word would invite indignant refutation from many. But if we dare them
now to recall for us the historical event that they know to be farthest
back in time, chances are they'd tell us who supposedly discovered the
Philippines. That is ancient?
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..................Of
course it would be wrong for anyone to say that we know absolutely nothing
about "pre-Spanish Philippines" (term not coming from our own point of
view). After all, we did study in class about "waves of migration," the
datus, the aliping namamahay and saguiguilid, the baranggays and the
so-called "trials-by-ordeal."
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..................But
how much do we know about the lives of our ancestors during the time of
"Philippines 1000"? How were they during the time of Christ? Believe it
or not, they were already here that early, in fact, much earlier. At the
time Jesus Christ was being crucified, our ancestors already had the renowned
Banaue rice terraces and the Manunggul Jar (3,500 years old by now), which
proved their belief in the afterlife.
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..................In
a chapter he wrote for the book Philippine Progress Prior to 1898,
which he co-authored with Conrado Benitez, Austin Craig cited passages
in Chinese history, including chronicles covering the Chou dynasty (B.C.
722), describing active interaction between the Asian mainland and what
later came to be called the Philippine archipelago.
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..................Rizal,
in his "The Indolence of the Filipinos," asserted that "the Filipinos have
not always been what they are," and cited as witnesses to this point "all
the historians of the first years" after Magellan's expedition. Wrote he:
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.................."Before
the arrival of the Europeans, the Malayan Filipinos carried on an active
trade, not only among themselves but also with all the neighboring count
ries. A Chinese manuscript of the 13th Century, translated by Dr. Hirth,
which we will take up at another time, speaks of China's relations with
the islands, relations purely commercial, which mention is made of the
activity and honesty of the traders of Luzon, who took the Chinese products
and distributed them throughout all the islands, traveling for nine months,
and then returned to pay religiously even for the merchandise that the
Chinamen did not remember having given them."
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..................Now
there is an important realization to be had with the help of any one-foot
ruler. If we take the Chou dynasty chronicles of B.C. 722 as the hypothetical
starting point, and 1994 as the end, we have had at least 2766 years of
written history, or about "230 years per inch" on the ruler. It was only
in the last 473 years, or roughly a mere one-sixth of this entire time
span, that we have been under Spanish and American spheres of influence
and domination.
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..................Looking
at a one-foot ruler, therefore, we can say that we are relatively familiar
with only its last two-inch segment, from the "10" marking to the end.
We know next to nothing about almost the entire length (ten inches) of
that ruler.
..................And
the little we know, from Rizal, Craig and the others, is not anything that
describes the "notorious Pinoy" that we now tend, with resignation, to
identify ourselves with. On the contrary, we do have reason to be proud
of our ancestry and heritage, if we could only diminish our collective
ignorance and disinterest in our own lifestory as the people of these islands.
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..................Instead
of exclaiming, "Talagang ganyan ang Piloy!", let us just lament that "Nagkaganyan
ang
Pinoy!" and start moving to undo the damage.
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